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Just go talk to a professional and get help.', 'start': 18.14, 'duration': 5.704}, {'end': 26.966, 'text': "We don't want to hear about it, okay? You shouldn't be talking about this publicly.", 'start': 23.884, 'duration': 3.082}], 'summary': 'Facing backlash for sharing family videos, breaking social stigma around mental health', 'duration': 26.957, 'max_score': 0.009, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/oj81nToLz8s/pics/oj81nToLz8s9.jpg'}, {'end': 72.263, 'src': 'embed', 'start': 33.997, 'weight': 1, 'content': [{'end': 40.521, 'text': 'I think this helps people and judging by a lot of comments I get, personal emails I get, they say, thank you for sharing this.', 'start': 33.997, 'duration': 6.524}, {'end': 46.685, 'text': "I've gone through something similar and it's helped me solidify what I think or what I need to do.", 'start': 41.001, 'duration': 5.684}, {'end': 48.406, 'text': 'This is an example of what I mean.', 'start': 47.105, 'duration': 1.301}, {'end': 53.329, 'text': "This guy, Andre, says, Like, I've spent my entire life trying to raise a decent human being, and this is what I get for all the sacrifice.", 'start': 48.806, 'duration': 4.523}, {'end': 54.11, 'text': 'That really sucks.', 'start': 53.349, 'duration': 0.761}, {'end': 57.132, 'text': 'He says, Sorry for not licking your a-hole like everyone else in this pathetic comment section.', 'start': 54.13, 'duration': 3.002}, {'end': 72.263, 'text': 'Is it a troll? Maybe.', 'start': 57.552, 'duration': 14.711}], 'summary': 'The content resonates with people, receiving positive feedback and helping them through similar experiences.', 'duration': 38.266, 'max_score': 33.997, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/oj81nToLz8s/pics/oj81nToLz8s33997.jpg'}, {'end': 192.531, 'src': 'embed', 'start': 166.948, 'weight': 4, 'content': [{'end': 175.491, 'text': 'My parents made the choice to try drugs and substances instead of working and trying to support each other.', 'start': 166.948, 'duration': 8.543}, {'end': 180.422, 'text': 'while i was giving them money and paying for everything that they need.', 'start': 177.02, 'duration': 3.402}, {'end': 185.666, 'text': 'that was a choice made out of selfishness or weakness, or whatever it was.', 'start': 180.422, 'duration': 5.244}, {'end': 192.531, 'text': 'that was a choice to choose a substance over their family that receives no sympathy from me,', 'start': 185.666, 'duration': 6.865}], 'summary': 'Parents chose drugs over work and family, relying on child for support.', 'duration': 25.583, 'max_score': 166.948, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/oj81nToLz8s/pics/oj81nToLz8s166948.jpg'}, {'end': 256.213, 'src': 'embed', 'start': 231.746, 'weight': 0, 'content': [{'end': 240.674, 'text': "sure, i believe people can get better and recover, but I don't have to forget what they did and I don't have to forgive what they did.", 'start': 231.746, 'duration': 8.928}, {'end': 244.079, 'text': 'If I mentally in my head say, oh, okay, well, I forgive them.', 'start': 240.854, 'duration': 3.225}, {'end': 244.68, 'text': 'They messed up.', 'start': 244.119, 'duration': 0.561}, {'end': 246.803, 'text': "I've already done that 40,000 times.", 'start': 244.76, 'duration': 2.043}, {'end': 248.705, 'text': "It doesn't even mean anything to me anymore.", 'start': 247.183, 'duration': 1.522}, {'end': 256.213, 'text': "You know, after that conversation with my dad, him revealing everything to me, I've come to the conclusion again that you guys are right.", 'start': 249.588, 'duration': 6.625}], 'summary': 'Believes in recovery but not obligated to forget or forgive, having forgiven 40,000 times; 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Because on that phone call my dad told me he was going to get a tattoo of a knife on his arm.', 'start': 308.936, 'duration': 4.801}, {'end': 315.177, 'text': 'that said never surrender.', 'start': 313.737, 'duration': 1.44}, {'end': 317.718, 'text': 'Surrender to what dad?', 'start': 316.918, 'duration': 0.8}, {'end': 321.893, 'text': 'What were you surrendering to before that you were fighting?', 'start': 319.847, 'duration': 2.046}, {'end': 327.708, 'text': "Drugs?. He kept asking me for my address and I kept saying no, I'm not going to give you my address.", 'start': 322.855, 'duration': 4.853}, {'end': 331.049, 'text': 'I said, dad, if you care about me, send me something.', 'start': 328.888, 'duration': 2.161}, {'end': 332.07, 'text': 'Spend a dollar on me.', 'start': 331.249, 'duration': 0.821}, {'end': 333.831, 'text': 'Send me something for my birthday that you missed.', 'start': 332.11, 'duration': 1.721}, {'end': 335.972, 'text': 'Send me something for Christmas that you missed.', 'start': 333.891, 'duration': 2.081}, {'end': 341.995, 'text': "And he kept saying, Josh, well, if you want something, I'll have to wait till next Friday until payday.", 'start': 336.632, 'duration': 5.363}], 'summary': "Struggle with father's addiction, missed occasions, and financial struggle.", 'duration': 34.239, 'max_score': 307.756, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/oj81nToLz8s/pics/oj81nToLz8s307756.jpg'}, {'end': 373.95, 'src': 'embed', 'start': 346.757, 'weight': 3, 'content': [{'end': 351.04, 'text': "And he also kept talking to me about how he's saving all this money so he can move back from the East Coast to the West Coast.", 'start': 346.757, 'duration': 4.283}, {'end': 356.743, 'text': "He kept saying that, well, I'm about to go to the grocery store after this phone call, but I wanted to give you a call and see how you're doing.", 'start': 351.4, 'duration': 5.343}, {'end': 364.986, 'text': "dad, if you're about to go to the grocery store which i've heard a thousand times for some things,", 'start': 357.603, 'duration': 7.383}, {'end': 373.95, 'text': "why can't you sacrifice some groceries and buy me a candy bar and he's like well, i just don't have the money again, full of lies and nonsense.", 'start': 364.986, 'duration': 8.964}], 'summary': "Son frustrated with dad's financial promises and excuses.", 'duration': 27.193, 'max_score': 346.757, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/oj81nToLz8s/pics/oj81nToLz8s346757.jpg'}, {'end': 483.912, 'src': 'embed', 'start': 455.879, 'weight': 5, 'content': [{'end': 458.381, 'text': "Perhaps they're mind readers and found out that my own father disowned me.", 'start': 455.879, 'duration': 2.502}, {'end': 463.265, 'text': 'Normal people would keep your family shit to themselves, but since you are clearly seeking validation and monetary..', 'start': 458.681, 'duration': 4.584}, {'end': 466.227, 'text': 'I think he means compensation via YouTube.', 'start': 464.466, 'duration': 1.761}, {'end': 469.307, 'text': "Why not? Dude, you're no better than the person you're discouraging.", 'start': 466.247, 'duration': 3.06}, {'end': 472.929, 'text': "Yes, I'm trying to seek monetary compensation from these videos.", 'start': 469.608, 'duration': 3.321}, {'end': 474.069, 'text': "There's no doubt about that.", 'start': 473.149, 'duration': 0.92}, {'end': 477.59, 'text': "I'd like to make the money back that they stole from for drugs.", 'start': 474.149, 'duration': 3.441}, {'end': 482.211, 'text': "I'd like to make the money back that they charged on a credit card for 10 grand.", 'start': 478.17, 'duration': 4.041}, {'end': 483.912, 'text': "I'd like to make the money back.", 'start': 482.271, 'duration': 1.641}], 'summary': 'The speaker seeks monetary compensation through youtube videos to recover money stolen and charged on a credit card for drugs, totaling 10 grand.', 'duration': 28.033, 'max_score': 455.879, 'thumbnail': 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contact and eventually ask for money and support.", "The father's persistent attempts to meet his son and the son's refusal to share his address depict the father's coercive behavior and the son's cautious approach, reflecting a challenging family dynamic.", "The son's realization of his father's manipulative behavior and insincere apologies, as well as the father's questionable intentions, is evident through the text messages, illustrating a concerning family relationship."]}, {'end': 489.355, 'start': 331.249, 'title': "Father's betrayal and financial struggles", 'summary': "Details the emotional impact of the father's betrayal, financial struggles, and seeking monetary compensation, with the narrator expressing hurt and disappointment, while highlighting the father's inability to provide and the desire for validation through youtube.", 'duration': 158.106, 'highlights': ["The narrator expresses frustration with the father's inability to provide, citing instances where the father claimed financial constraints but talked about saving money for a house and a move to the West Coast.", "The father's repeated promises of sending gifts for missed occasions contrast with his claims of financial constraints, raising doubts about his honesty and intentions, reflecting a strained relationship.", "The narrator shares the emotional impact of the father's neglect and betrayal, expressing hurt and disappointment, while highlighting the father's inability to fulfill simple requests, such as buying a candy bar, adding depth to the emotional struggle.", "The narrator seeks validation and monetary compensation through YouTube, expressing a desire to recover money lost to the father's actions, highlighting the financial impact and emotional turmoil caused by the father's choices."]}], 'duration': 239.767, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/oj81nToLz8s/pics/oj81nToLz8s249588.jpg', 'highlights': ["The father's manipulative hoovering behavior is evident through insincere apologies and coercive attempts to regain contact and ask for money and support.", "The son's cautious approach reflects a challenging family dynamic, as he refuses to share his address despite the father's persistent attempts to reconnect.", "The son's realization of his father's manipulative behavior and insincere apologies is evident through text messages, illustrating a concerning family relationship.", "The father's contradictory claims about financial constraints and saving money for a house and a move to the West Coast raise doubts about his honesty and intentions, reflecting a strained relationship.", "The emotional impact of the father's neglect and betrayal is expressed, adding depth to the emotional struggle experienced by the narrator.", "The narrator seeks validation and monetary compensation through YouTube, highlighting the financial impact and emotional turmoil caused by the father's choices."]}, {'end': 1019.588, 'segs': [{'end': 576.627, 'src': 'embed', 'start': 534.874, 'weight': 0, 'content': [{'end': 543.483, 'text': 'Do you guys see the irony in that? People are afraid to share their experiences on the public forum because of people like you.', 'start': 534.874, 'duration': 8.609}, {'end': 547.967, 'text': "The same people who say, it's okay to share what you're going through are the same people who say, shh, be quiet.", 'start': 543.863, 'duration': 4.104}, {'end': 548.608, 'text': "We don't want to hear it.", 'start': 547.987, 'duration': 0.621}, {'end': 550.507, 'text': 'So fuck off.', 'start': 549.926, 'duration': 0.581}, {'end': 554.912, 'text': 'I have no issues going through the social stigma, zero at all.', 'start': 551.208, 'duration': 3.704}, {'end': 564.144, 'text': 'And I have no problem calling the people out that try to shame me for doing nothing, but share an experience that I hope other people can learn from.', 'start': 555.373, 'duration': 8.771}, {'end': 571.942, 'text': "It's kind of funny for me to go back in time and look at screenshots and messages and pictures that I had during this time,", 'start': 564.925, 'duration': 7.017}, {'end': 573.604, 'text': "because I knew things weren't adding up.", 'start': 571.942, 'duration': 1.662}, {'end': 576.627, 'text': "I knew things were weird and odd and things weren't just right.", 'start': 573.664, 'duration': 2.963}], 'summary': 'Challenges sharing experiences in public forums due to social stigma and resistance, despite advocating for openness.', 'duration': 41.753, 'max_score': 534.874, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/oj81nToLz8s/pics/oj81nToLz8s534874.jpg'}, {'end': 719.075, 'src': 'embed', 'start': 687.06, 'weight': 3, 'content': [{'end': 691.822, 'text': 'You knew this was bad and you still told me to provide for my dad.', 'start': 687.06, 'duration': 4.762}, {'end': 699.166, 'text': 'Again, which really meant if I was supporting my dad by giving them money, I was also supporting my mom and they were buying drugs with it.', 'start': 692.202, 'duration': 6.964}, {'end': 704.281, 'text': "Here's a picture from a story that I've shared many, many times.", 'start': 700.538, 'duration': 3.743}, {'end': 706.503, 'text': "And I don't think people believe me.", 'start': 705.142, 'duration': 1.361}, {'end': 710.887, 'text': 'My ex-girlfriend cheated with my best friend or ex-best friend.', 'start': 707.044, 'duration': 3.843}, {'end': 719.075, 'text': "And I went to go visit my dad because I just wanted someone to hug and to hold because I didn't have anyone.", 'start': 711.588, 'duration': 7.487}], 'summary': 'Struggling with supporting parents buying drugs; coping with betrayal and loneliness.', 'duration': 32.015, 'max_score': 687.06, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/oj81nToLz8s/pics/oj81nToLz8s687060.jpg'}, {'end': 762.07, 'src': 'heatmap', 'start': 734.024, 'weight': 1, 'content': [{'end': 736.925, 'text': 'But if you look at this picture, does it look like he just woke up??', 'start': 734.024, 'duration': 2.901}, {'end': 743.409, 'text': 'Do you see the burn marks in the robe on his arm??', 'start': 738.326, 'duration': 5.083}, {'end': 755.247, 'text': 'could that be from and to know that just inside the wall that he is leaning against, is my mom and my sister in there doing heroin, meth, cocaine,', 'start': 744.421, 'duration': 10.826}, {'end': 756.887, 'text': 'whatever it was to to know?', 'start': 755.247, 'duration': 1.64}, {'end': 762.07, 'text': 'that now infuriates me just five feet out of reach.', 'start': 756.887, 'duration': 5.183}], 'summary': "A man in the picture appears not to have just woken up, with burn marks on his arm, expressing anger at his family's drug use.", 'duration': 28.046, 'max_score': 734.024, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/oj81nToLz8s/pics/oj81nToLz8s734024.jpg'}, {'end': 864.038, 'src': 'embed', 'start': 811.426, 'weight': 4, 'content': [{'end': 815.249, 'text': 'Less than three feet away are people doing illicit substances.', 'start': 811.426, 'duration': 3.823}, {'end': 816.93, 'text': "And aren't just people.", 'start': 816.049, 'duration': 0.881}, {'end': 820.072, 'text': 'They were my mother and my sister.', 'start': 816.99, 'duration': 3.082}, {'end': 827.876, 'text': "To know that I was this close to discovering everything, but I didn't because I held them to a higher standard than that.", 'start': 820.872, 'duration': 7.004}, {'end': 831.494, 'text': 'Just.. is mind-blowing, is unbelievable.', 'start': 828.337, 'duration': 3.157}, {'end': 838.66, 'text': 'I think my parents have ruined all words of affirmation for me.', 'start': 831.955, 'duration': 6.705}, {'end': 847.247, 'text': "They've ruined all words of meaning because they come from the people that you hold the highest in your life,", 'start': 839.641, 'duration': 7.606}, {'end': 851.01, 'text': 'the people that are never supposed to cross you, and they lose their meaning.', 'start': 847.247, 'duration': 3.763}, {'end': 855.013, 'text': 'This has actually affected my relationships.', 'start': 853.232, 'duration': 1.781}, {'end': 857.755, 'text': "Now, I'm not afraid to admit it.", 'start': 856.094, 'duration': 1.661}, {'end': 864.038, 'text': "If HR lady says, I love you, it's really difficult for me to give a response back because I just don't feel anything.", 'start': 858.775, 'duration': 5.263}], 'summary': "Discovering family's drug use has affected my relationships and trust in words of affirmation.", 'duration': 52.612, 'max_score': 811.426, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/oj81nToLz8s/pics/oj81nToLz8s811426.jpg'}], 'start': 489.515, 'title': 'Stigma and trust issues', 'summary': 'Delves into the stigma of public sharing of personal experiences, addressing the irony of encouraging mental well-being sharing, yet shaming those who do. it also explores the impact of parental betrayal, financial manipulation, and drug addiction on trust issues and emotional expressions.', 'chapters': [{'end': 593.378, 'start': 489.515, 'title': 'Internet stigma and public sharing', 'summary': "Discusses the stigma around publicly sharing personal experiences and the irony in how people are encouraged to share their mental well-being but are then shamed for doing so, leading to a reluctance to share on public forums, despite the desire for openness and learning from others' experiences.", 'duration': 103.863, 'highlights': ['There is a stigma around publicly sharing personal experiences, which leads to people being shamed for sharing their mental well-being despite the encouragement to do so. The speaker discusses the stigma attached to publicly sharing personal experiences, particularly related to mental well-being, highlighting the irony in how people are encouraged to be open about their mental health but are then shamed for doing so.', "There is a reluctance to share experiences on public forums due to the fear of being shamed for it, despite the desire for openness and learning from others' experiences. The chapter points out the reluctance of individuals to share their experiences on public forums due to the fear of being shamed, despite the societal encouragement to be open about one's mental well-being and to share and learn from others' experiences.", 'The speaker recalls a time when they shared screenshots and messages with friends to validate their experiences, highlighting the need for validation and support when going through difficult situations. The speaker reflects on a time when they sought validation and support by sharing screenshots and messages with friends to make sense of their experiences, emphasizing the importance of seeking validation and support when going through challenging situations.']}, {'end': 1019.588, 'start': 593.818, 'title': 'Parental betrayal and trust issues', 'summary': "Recounts a heartbreaking story of parental betrayal, financial manipulation, and drug addiction, leading to the speaker's profound trust issues, affecting his ability to receive and reciprocate emotional expressions.", 'duration': 425.77, 'highlights': ["The speaker discovers that his parents have been misusing the financial support he provided, leading to trust issues and emotional trauma. The speaker realizes that the financial support he was providing to his father was also enabling his mother's drug addiction, leading to a sense of betrayal and emotional trauma.", 'The speaker expresses how the betrayal by his parents has impacted his ability to trust and receive emotional expressions from others. The speaker shares how the betrayal by his parents has led to a profound impact on his ability to trust and reciprocate emotional expressions, causing a significant emotional toll.', "The speaker discusses his struggle to find meaning in emotional expressions and the impact on his ability to trust others. The speaker expresses how the betrayal by his parents has led to a loss of meaning in emotional expressions, making it difficult for him to trust and believe in the authenticity of others' emotions."]}], 'duration': 530.073, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/oj81nToLz8s/pics/oj81nToLz8s489515.jpg', 'highlights': ['The stigma around publicly sharing personal experiences leads to people being shamed for sharing mental well-being despite encouragement.', "Reluctance to share experiences on public forums due to fear of being shamed, despite the desire for openness and learning from others' experiences.", 'Seeking validation and support by sharing screenshots and messages with friends emphasizes the importance of support during difficult situations.', "The speaker's parents misused the financial support provided, leading to trust issues and emotional trauma.", "Betrayal by the speaker's parents has impacted his ability to trust and receive emotional expressions from others.", 'Struggle to find meaning in emotional expressions and the impact on the ability to trust others.']}], 'highlights': ['The speaker expresses frustration and anger towards the choices made by the family, highlighting the emotional strain and lack of sympathy towards addiction.', "The father's manipulative hoovering behavior is evident through insincere apologies and coercive attempts to regain contact and ask for money and support.", "The speaker's parents misused the financial support provided, leading to trust issues and emotional trauma.", 'The speaker emphasizes the difficulty in forgiving and moving on, expressing the exhaustion from repeated attempts at forgiveness and the lack of significance in the act of forgiveness.', 'The speaker shares personal stories and receives positive feedback from viewers, indicating that the content resonates with others and provides support.', 'The stigma around publicly sharing personal experiences leads to people being shamed for sharing mental well-being despite encouragement.', 'The irony of people encouraging sharing mental well-being but then discouraging talking about it publicly', "The speaker seeks validation and monetary compensation through YouTube, highlighting the financial impact and emotional turmoil caused by the father's choices.", "The son's realization of his father's manipulative behavior and insincere apologies is evident through text messages, illustrating a concerning family relationship.", "Reluctance to share experiences on public forums due to fear of being shamed, despite the desire for openness and learning from others' experiences."]}