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My dad is on a breathing machine and I'm struggling to focus | #grindreel

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{'end': 55.374, 'text': "And I guess, before you say don't you have someone to talk about this with besides us?", 'start': 50.672, 'duration': 4.702}, {'end': 59.755, 'text': 'The two people that I would talk about this with were the two people that cheated.', 'start': 56.534, 'duration': 3.221}, {'end': 62.175, 'text': 'Ex-girlfriend, ex-best friend.', 'start': 60.395, 'duration': 1.78}], 'summary': 'Family issues: sister asked for money, dad on breathing machine, no one to talk to', 'duration': 43.918, 'max_score': 40.467, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/S6HZvF-s8KI/pics/S6HZvF-s8KI40467.jpg'}], 'start': 0.249, 'title': 'Struggles with personal relationships', 'summary': "Delves into the creator's personal struggles, highlighting the lack of family support and its impact on content creation. it provides specific instances such as being left on read, asked for money, and coping with family health issues.", 'chapters': [{'end': 62.175, 'start': 0.249, 'title': 'Struggles with personal relationships', 'summary': "Focuses on the creator's current personal struggles, including lack of support from family members and the impact on content creation, with specific instances of being left on read, asked for money, and family health issues.", 'duration': 61.926, 'highlights': ['The creator shares current personal struggles, impacting content creation, including being left on read, asked for money, and family health issues.', 'The impact of personal struggles on content creation is highlighted, affecting the ability to produce helpful and creative content.', 'Specific instances of lack of support from family members are mentioned, such as being left on read, asked for money, and family health issues.', 'The creator expresses the lack of individuals to confide in due to betrayal by ex-girlfriend and ex-best friend.']}], 'duration': 61.926, 'thumbnail': 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genuine people that want to hang out with me and just actually go do fun stuff.", 'start': 141.327, 'duration': 5.545}, {'end': 149.853, 'text': 'and we have something of equal value to trade and like.', 'start': 147.652, 'duration': 2.201}, {'end': 156.998, 'text': 'we actually want to get along, but usually it just ends up that people want something from me.', 'start': 149.853, 'duration': 7.145}, {'end': 160.2, 'text': "they don't want to get to know me or they don't have any interest in who I am.", 'start': 156.998, 'duration': 3.202}, {'end': 163.522, 'text': "they just have interest in and what I've built and what I've done.", 'start': 160.2, 'duration': 3.322}, {'end': 164.722, 'text': 'I guess so before.', 'start': 163.522, 'duration': 1.2}, {'end': 168.865, 'text': "before you say anything more, I just want to say that no, I'm not depressed,", 'start': 164.722, 'duration': 4.143}], 'summary': 'Difficulty distinguishing genuine people, feeling used for achievements, not 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[{'end': 378.059, 'text': "He just like, look, it's just hard right now.", 'start': 376.018, 'duration': 2.041}, {'end': 379.72, 'text': 'And blah, blah, blah.', 'start': 378.159, 'duration': 1.561}, {'end': 386.865, 'text': "And this created tension in my family between me and my dad and my mom, because there was no real reason why she didn't want to work.", 'start': 379.84, 'duration': 7.025}, {'end': 394.712, 'text': "And eventually when I confronted my mom about not wanting to work, She would say, well, I'm just worried about my dad.", 'start': 387.826, 'duration': 6.886}, {'end': 397.675, 'text': "I can't focus right now and I don't have money to go back.", 'start': 394.932, 'duration': 2.743}, {'end': 400.939, 'text': 'And I would always say, well, if you get a job and you can save up, you can go visit him.', 'start': 398.076, 'duration': 2.863}, {'end': 402.24, 'text': 'But that never happened.', 'start': 401.479, 'duration': 0.761}, {'end': 406.165, 'text': 'Eventually, my dad 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The speaker describes the challenges of supporting his parents financially, with unmet agreements causing strain on family dynamics.', 'Decline of the YouTube channel and dashed dreams due to strained family dynamics. The decline of the YouTube channel and dashed dreams is attributed to the strain on family dynamics, leading to unmet expectations and an inability to build the envisioned business.', "The father's failure to uphold scheduled commitments and the resulting impact on the YouTube channel. The father's failure to honor scheduled commitments and contribute to the YouTube channel led to unmet expectations and a decline in the channel's success.", "The mother's reluctance to work and the impact on the family's financial situation. 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I should be a better son.", 'start': 568.555, 'duration': 2.163}, {'end': 571.599, 'text': 'I should step it up.', 'start': 570.778, 'duration': 0.821}, {'end': 573.541, 'text': 'I should do better and I should do more.', 'start': 571.679, 'duration': 1.862}, {'end': 577.686, 'text': 'And I was like, all right, maybe my dad is feeling lonely because his wife of..', 'start': 573.601, 'duration': 4.085}, {'end': 580.168, 'text': '30 plus years just left.', 'start': 578.747, 'duration': 1.421}, {'end': 581.449, 'text': "And he's never been alone.", 'start': 580.548, 'duration': 0.901}, {'end': 582.85, 'text': "He hasn't been alone in 30 plus years.", 'start': 581.469, 'duration': 1.381}, {'end': 587.153, 'text': "He's been married and been stuck at the hip with my mom for 30 years.", 'start': 582.87, 'duration': 4.283}, {'end': 589.114, 'text': 'And so maybe you know what should I do?', 'start': 587.293, 'duration': 1.821}], 'summary': 'Struggling with resentment, i realized i must be a 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a financial burden and strain on the speaker's ability to pay bills.", 'The speaker describes the difficulty of supporting fully capable individuals and expresses the challenge of dealing with an uncooperative attitude, emphasizing the burden of financial responsibility.', 'The speaker conveys the frustration of working hard for everything while facing the challenge of supporting an unwillingly unemployed parent, highlighting the emotional and financial strain.']}, {'end': 704.53, 'start': 480.008, 'title': 'Struggles with supporting parents', 'summary': 'Discusses the challenges of supporting parents, including financial strain and emotional turmoil, as the speaker grapples with offering assistance while facing resistance and difficult decisions.', 'duration': 224.522, 'highlights': ['The speaker struggled with the decision to support his parents financially, including buying a one-way ticket for his mother to Georgia, which ultimately did not lead to the intended outcome.', "Despite 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32.581, 'max_score': 839.61, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/S6HZvF-s8KI/pics/S6HZvF-s8KI839610.jpg'}, {'end': 922.642, 'src': 'embed', 'start': 892.007, 'weight': 3, 'content': [{'end': 894.567, 'text': "And that's when I decided to finally use some of what I had saved.", 'start': 892.007, 'duration': 2.56}, {'end': 895.948, 'text': "And that was to get a pilot's license.", 'start': 894.788, 'duration': 1.16}, {'end': 897.148, 'text': 'And I feel guilty for it.', 'start': 896.048, 'duration': 1.1}, {'end': 899.849, 'text': "And in that video, I'm like, I say that I feel guilty for it.", 'start': 897.188, 'duration': 2.661}, {'end': 902.869, 'text': "And it's because I know that I might need that money to pay for my dad's medical bills.", 'start': 899.929, 'duration': 2.94}, {'end': 906.17, 'text': 'I know that I might need that money for something else besides what I want.', 'start': 903.149, 'duration': 3.021}, {'end': 908.571, 'text': "And what I want, I guess, isn't the most important thing in the world.", 'start': 906.25, 'duration': 2.321}, {'end': 913.472, 'text': "It's just since I've been doing this, it's just been for other people, which I don't mind.", 'start': 909.571, 'duration': 3.901}, {'end': 918.739, 'text': 'I like helping people, but I felt so guilty I cried.', 'start': 913.512, 'duration': 5.227}, {'end': 922.642, 'text': 'I cried in front of the camera and when I was off camera too, like 10 times as much,', 'start': 919.119, 'duration': 3.523}], 'summary': "Struggling with guilt over using savings for pilot's license, may need money for dad's medical bills.", 'duration': 30.635, 'max_score': 892.007, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/S6HZvF-s8KI/pics/S6HZvF-s8KI892007.jpg'}], 'start': 704.53, 'title': 'Family struggles and support', 'summary': "Delves into the narrator's challenges of maintaining a happy facade amidst financial struggles and shouldering medical expenses, as well as their dedication to supporting homeless parents while balancing personal ambition and work productivity.", 'chapters': [{'end': 800.711, 'start': 704.53, 'title': 'Struggles with family and financial burden', 'summary': "Depicts the narrator's challenges of maintaining a happy facade while dealing with financial struggles and shouldering the medical expenses of their father's numerous health issues over the past six years.", 'duration': 96.181, 'highlights': ["The narrator's efforts to maintain a facade of normalcy while struggling with financial burdens and shouldering the medical expenses of their father's health issues, including tuberculosis, cancerous cysts, prostate problems, and a severe spider bite.", "The ongoing financial burden on the narrator due to their father's health issues, including the responsibility for covering medical expenses without health insurance for the past six years.", "The narrator's skepticism towards their father's health issues initially, influenced by past experiences of family members fabricating financial needs, but ultimately providing financial support due to the seriousness of the health problems.", "The emotional toll of pretending that everything is normal while facing financial pressure and dealing with the severity of their father's health issues, as depicted through the facade of making videos together with their father to maintain a happy appearance."]}, {'end': 1154.999, 'start': 800.711, 'title': 'Supporting family amid struggles', 'summary': "Details the speaker's dedication to supporting their homeless parents, the challenges of balancing personal ambition and family responsibilities, and the emotional toll of the situation, while striving to maintain work productivity amidst personal struggles.", 'duration': 354.288, 'highlights': ['The speaker dedicates all their efforts to support their homeless parents, working nonstop to provide for their needs, including paying for medical bills and living expenses. Dedication to supporting parents, working nonstop, providing for medical bills and living expenses.', "The speaker feels conflicted between working for themselves and working to support their parents, expressing guilt and emotional distress over pursuing personal ambitions like getting a pilot's license. Conflict between personal ambitions and family responsibilities, emotional distress and guilt.", "The speaker recounts their father's health struggles, including a severe bout of pneumonia, and the challenges of balancing caregiving responsibilities with work commitments. Father's health struggles, challenges of balancing caregiving and work commitments."]}], 'duration': 450.469, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/S6HZvF-s8KI/pics/S6HZvF-s8KI704530.jpg', 'highlights': ["The ongoing financial burden on the narrator due to their father's health issues, including the responsibility for covering medical expenses without health insurance for the past six years.", "The narrator's efforts to maintain a facade of normalcy while struggling with financial burdens and shouldering the medical expenses of their father's health issues, including tuberculosis, cancerous cysts, prostate problems, and a severe spider bite.", 'The speaker dedicates all their efforts to support their homeless parents, working nonstop to provide for their needs, including paying for medical bills and living expenses.', "The speaker feels conflicted between working for themselves and working to support their parents, expressing guilt and emotional distress over pursuing personal ambitions like getting a pilot's license."]}, {'end': 1369.632, 'segs': [{'end': 1179.801, 'src': 'embed', 'start': 1157.04, 'weight': 0, 'content': [{'end': 1167.487, 'text': "What really gets me is this whole time, I haven't mentioned my mom anymore, is that my mom does nothing, even to this day, to support me or my dad.", 'start': 1157.04, 'duration': 10.447}, {'end': 1173.211, 'text': 'My mom took a one-way ticket back to Georgia to be a caretaker for my grandpa, and he passed away back in..', 'start': 1167.847, 'duration': 5.364}, {'end': 1179.801, 'text': 'November She has been living with my grandma rent-free with no bills and no job for months now.', 'start': 1174.639, 'duration': 5.162}], 'summary': 'Mother moved to georgia to be caretaker, living rent-free with no job for months.', 'duration': 22.761, 'max_score': 1157.04, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/S6HZvF-s8KI/pics/S6HZvF-s8KI1157040.jpg'}, {'end': 1297.19, 'src': 'heatmap', 'start': 1268.152, 'weight': 2, 'content': [{'end': 1275.475, 'text': "and just totally turn her back and walk away and still feel like it's my dad's job to provide for them, which ends up becoming my job,", 'start': 1268.152, 'duration': 7.323}, {'end': 1279.216, 'text': 'because I give my money to my dad and then my dad probably gives it to her.', 'start': 1275.475, 'duration': 3.741}, {'end': 1283.978, 'text': "My grandma has said to me, you know, don't worry, Josh, one day you'll have everything you wanted.", 'start': 1279.496, 'duration': 4.482}, {'end': 1286.7, 'text': "You'll be all alone with no friends or family.", 'start': 1284.818, 'duration': 1.882}, {'end': 1288.421, 'text': 'My grandmother said that to me.', 'start': 1286.82, 'duration': 1.601}, {'end': 1293.366, 'text': 'And I know that they watch these videos as a way to kind of maintain a relationship with me.', 'start': 1289.262, 'duration': 4.104}, {'end': 1295.588, 'text': "And I just want you to know that it's so fucked up.", 'start': 1293.426, 'duration': 2.162}, {'end': 1297.19, 'text': 'This is not an excuse.', 'start': 1296.209, 'duration': 0.981}], 'summary': 'Josh feels burdened by financially supporting family, causing strain in relationships.', 'duration': 29.038, 'max_score': 1268.152, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/S6HZvF-s8KI/pics/S6HZvF-s8KI1268152.jpg'}, {'end': 1349.273, 'src': 'embed', 'start': 1322.443, 'weight': 3, 'content': [{'end': 1327.687, 'text': 'And I thought about not even monetizing this video, but I feel It feels stupid to not do that.', 'start': 1322.443, 'duration': 5.244}, {'end': 1331.672, 'text': "so I'm gonna keep it monetized because I'm gonna use the money for this to continue to pay for my dad's breathing treatment.", 'start': 1327.687, 'duration': 3.985}, {'end': 1334.415, 'text': 'So thank you for everything.', 'start': 1332.653, 'duration': 1.762}, {'end': 1336.097, 'text': 'Thank you for being here.', 'start': 1335.337, 'duration': 0.76}, {'end': 1337.259, 'text': 'Thank you for listening.', 'start': 1336.518, 'duration': 0.741}, {'end': 1340.123, 'text': 'Thank you for watching my videos.', 'start': 1338.921, 'duration': 1.202}, {'end': 1341.825, 'text': 'You guys really do more than you know.', 'start': 1340.443, 'duration': 1.382}, {'end': 1344.869, 'text': "Just by watching my videos, I'm not out buying Lambos.", 'start': 1342.005, 'duration': 2.864}, {'end': 1347.011, 'text': "I'm not out buying fancy new monitors.", 'start': 1345.249, 'duration': 1.762}, {'end': 1349.273, 'text': "I'm not out spending my money.", 'start': 1347.311, 'duration': 1.962}], 'summary': "Decided to monetize video for dad's treatment costs.", 'duration': 26.83, 'max_score': 1322.443, 'thumbnail': 'https://coursnap.oss-ap-southeast-1.aliyuncs.com/video-capture/S6HZvF-s8KI/pics/S6HZvF-s8KI1322443.jpg'}], 'start': 1157.04, 'title': 'Supporting a sick parent', 'summary': "Delves into the emotional and financial challenges of caring for a sick parent, emphasizing the lack of support from the narrator's mother and grandmother. it illuminates the burden placed on the narrator to provide for his father's medical needs.", 'chapters': [{'end': 1369.632, 'start': 1157.04, 'title': 'Struggles of supporting a sick parent', 'summary': "Highlights the emotional and financial burden of caring for a sick parent, revealing the lack of support from the narrator's mother and grandmother, with the responsibility falling on the narrator to provide for his father's medical needs.", 'duration': 212.592, 'highlights': ["The narrator's mother moved to Georgia to care for her grandfather, living rent-free with no job, while the narrator's father struggles to stay alive, showcasing the lack of support from the mother and the burden on the father and narrator (relevance: 5)", "The narrator confronts his mother about not working or supporting the family, emphasizing the 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father's breathing treatment showcases the financial strain and dependency on external support for essential medical expenses (relevance: 1)"]}], 'highlights': ["The ongoing financial burden on the narrator due to their father's health issues, including the responsibility for covering medical expenses without health insurance for the past six years.", "The narrator's efforts to maintain a facade of normalcy while struggling with financial burdens and shouldering the medical expenses of their father's health issues, including tuberculosis, cancerous cysts, prostate problems, and a severe spider bite.", 'The speaker dedicates all their efforts to support their homeless parents, working nonstop to provide for their needs, including paying for medical bills and living expenses.', "The speaker feels conflicted between working for themselves and working to support their parents, expressing guilt and emotional distress over pursuing personal ambitions like getting a pilot's license.", 'The 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aiming to present the reality of YouTube life.', 'The speaker faces internal conflict between seeking personal freedom and feeling drained by family obligations, expressing thoughts of wishing to escape the situation.', 'The speaker dedicates significant time and effort to help their father transition to YouTube, providing guidance on video creation, editing, marketing, and live streaming, as well as building a website for him, despite the draining nature of the family dynamic.', "The speaker sacrifices their own convenience by giving their car to their father and purchasing another one, showing a tangible commitment to their father's success despite the personal challenges faced.", "The speaker's dedication to helping their father transition to YouTube is evident in their detailed involvement in every aspect of the process, from video creation to online monetization, demonstrating a high level of support and guidance provided.", "The speaker's initial positive experience in helping their father transition to YouTube gradually becomes challenging, with the speaker balancing their own video creation and live streaming alongside the extensive support provided to their father, highlighting the increasing strain on the speaker's personal and professional life.", 'The creator expresses the lack of individuals to confide in due to betrayal by ex-girlfriend and ex-best friend.']}